by Lalainya R. Barrett
I wrote I LOVE YOU
in the sand and laughed about it.
I still loved you it meant
deep down inside my heart and
that just couldn’t be.
Not after you left me
and not after you treated me so mean
and caused me pain.
It was just something to do on
the lonely beach.
A stick laid there and seemed to call to me,
“I need a purpose…
write a message in the sand with me,”
and I did.
I picked up the stick and
walked along the granite barrier –
I took it and wrote that I loved you
in five foot letters.
I LOVE YOU, LAWRENCE.
I never did that before when we were one.
And I laughed that I must have been going insane.
Loneliness can do that.
I sat on the barrier and wondered
where you were and what you were doing.
Maybe even wondered who you were with
right now.
My tears could not stop and I hid my face in shame.
I miss you, but always played the part
of being the one who couldn’t be hurt any longer.
I still need you,
but you are gone.
As I gazed upon the last remains
of my love for you,
The waves came crashing onto the beach
and drove my love back into the sea.
And left me with nothing
to remember you by…
just like you.
